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“ And you are going awayⒶtextual note, and will not come back any more.”
“Yes,” he said. “We have comraded long together, and it has been pleasant—pleasant for both; but I must go now, and we shall not see each other any more.”
“In this life, 44, but in another? We shall meet in another, surely, 44?”
Then all tranquilly and soberly he made the strange answer—
“There is no other.”
A subtle influence blew upon my spirit from his, bringing with it a vague, dim, but blessed and hopefulⒶalteration in the MS feelingⒶalteration in the MS that the incredibleⒶalteration in the MS words might be true—even must be true.
“Have you never suspected this, August?”
“No—how could I? But if it can only be true—”
[begin page 404]“It is true.”
A gush of thankfulness rose in my breast, but a doubt checked it before it could issue in words, and I said—
“But—but—we have seen that future life—seen it in its actuality, and so—”
“It was a vision—it had no existence.”
I could hardly breathe for the great hope that was struggling in me—
“A vision?—a vi—”
“Life itself is only a vision, a dream.”
It was electrical. By God I had had that very thought a thousand times in my musings!
“Nothing exists; all is a dream. God—manⒶalteration in the MS—the world,—the sun, the moon, the wilderness of stars: a dream, all a dream, they have no existence. Nothing exists save empty space—and you!”
“I!”
“And you are not you—you have no body, no blood, no bones, you are but a thought. I myself have no existence, I am but a dream —your dream, creature of your imagination. In a moment you will have realized this, then you will banish me from your visions and I shall dissolve into the nothingness out of which you made me . . . . .Ⓐalteration in the MS
“I am perishing already—I am failing, I am passing away. In a little while you will be alone in shoreless space, to wander its limitlessⒶalteration in the MS solitudes without friend or comrade forever—Ⓐalteration in the MS for you will remain aⒶalteration in the MS Thought, the only existent ThoughtⒶalteration in the MS, and by your nature inextinguishable, indestructible. But I your poor servant have revealed you to yourself and set you free. Dream other dreams, and better! . . . .
“Strange! that you should not have suspected, years ago, centuries, ages, æons ago! for you have existed, companionless, through all the eternities. Strange, indeed, that you should not have suspected that your universe and its contents were only dreams, visions, fictions! Strange, because they are so frankly and hysterically insane—like all dreams: a God who could make good children as easily as bad, yet preferred to make bad ones; who could have made [begin page 405] every one of them happy, yet never made a single happy one; who made them prize their bitter life, yet stingily cut it short; who gave his angels eternal happiness unearned, yet required his other children to earn it; who gave his angels painless lives, yet cursedⒶalteration in the MS his other children with bitingⒶalteration in the MS miseries and maladies of mind and body; who mouths justice, and invented hell—mouths mercy, and invented hell—mouths Golden RulesⒶalteration in the MS, and foregiveness multiplied by seventy times seven, and invented hell; who mouths morals to other people, and has none himself; who frowns uponⒶalteration in the MS crimes, yet commits them all;Ⓐalteration in the MS who created manⒶalteration in the MS without invitation, then tries to shuffle the responsibility for man's acts upon man, instead of honorably placing it where it belongs, upon himself; and finallyⒶalteration in the MS, with altogether divine obtuseness, invites this poor abused slave to worship him! . . . .
“You perceive, now,Ⓐalteration in the MS that these things are all impossible, except in a dream. You perceive that they are pure and puerileⒶalteration in the MS insanities, the sillyⒶalteration in the MS creations of an imagination that is not conscious of its freaks—in a word, that they are a dream, and you the maker of it. The dream-marks are all present—you should have recognized them earlier . . . . .
“It is true, that which I have revealed to you: there is no God, no universe, no human race, no earthly life, no heaven, no hell. It is all a Dream, a grotesque and foolish dream. Nothing exists but You. And You are but a Thought—a vagrant Thought, a useless Thought, a homeless Thought, wandering forlorn among the empty eternities!”
He vanished, and left me appalled; for I knew, and realized, that all he had said was true.
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